Sex,sex,sex

so like today i went to church and this guest speaker was talking about the difference between guys and girls, what love really means and sex before marriage. i agreed with most of it until the sex before marriage thing. see, im not planning on ever getting married. i just want to i don't know. like i don't just wanna 'fuck around' i just want to be with people for a long time. or have a friend with benefits. just fuck and act like we're going out but we're not. i think i'd like that alot more.

also the love of my life's girlfriend might dump the love of my life. so i might be able to have him be my lover again so maybe, just maybe i'll be happy agian. but, he'll probably cheat on me so nevermind. i just want him to be my lover so bad instead of christian but im not gonna dump christian. but like yeah.

also todya my brother got beat up at the skate park. i laugh at him. i love him but i don't care if he gets hurt. he's an ass. well goodnight love.

love

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