jsut say it all

so at this point in my life i'm getting tired of always keeping how i feel hidden from who im talking to. i'm just now gonna start asking people how i feel and telling them straight up. i think im more scared for they're responces to what i have to say to them like today after weeks and weeks and pondering the subject i finallty asked Jordan why he loves me and his responce was unbelievable sweet. Heres what he said:
I guess that there really isn't a specific reason... or multiple reasons, really. I know that I love you cause whenever you're around I get all happy and fuzzy inside, and a general euphoric sense. like as long as your next to me i can do anything. That and you're cute, fun(ny), put up with me, have a wonderful personality, we're compatible and you usually tell me that you love me, and you seem to care about me and you argue with me everytime I think you're doing something with someone else and you're playful and lovely and we make plans together and we don't seem like one of those fake couples and we like a lot of the same things and our fights always remind us of how much I really do care for and love you"
i think that is one of THE sweetest things he has ever said to me.
But then it kills me how right afterwards he starts talking about sex. like emotion kinda matters to him and how he's probably at home like..damn i have to be emotional? wtf?? i dont know though. i think he does though and i think hes the one.

so recently my back gto messed up so i've been sick. sad day right? yeah i miss all of my friends and tired of laying in bed all day. its really not too fun TV sux i have become a pop colture magnet. it is the worst thing ever i want my anti-social-social life back.

ok well im done for the night bye bye