My hell like Dream

I'm going insane. Recently I've just been getting scared of mine and Jordans realationship ending..dramaticully. And it's driving me insane I can't even escape from it in my sleep because everytime I dream, I dream of him cheating on me right in front of me and I wake up crying. I just want it to stop. I want things to go back to normal. And since I can't see him until Saturday i'm gonna be seriously depressed until I do see him. I just don't want anything to end between us. He makes me so happy. But recently just so depressed. It's bothering me. I need some help. Like the dream I had last night was the worst in the world. It was him half naked with someone that I know (i'll keep them anonomouse) just flirting with her right in my face until finally he just starts kissing her and then he almost starts having sex with her but then I wake up in a heavy breath crying. I'm hateing this so much. I just want it to stop. I need him to promise me he wont cheat on me or he isn't or never has. And if he can't do that then I'll have to end it. God, I hate saying that, it kills me so much to even think of ending it. But if he doesn't want to be 100% commited to me then I can't keep being hurt. Okay, i'm making myself cry i'm gonna stop.



Love,

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